Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6, NKJV)
We serve an awesome God who loves us so much that when we stray
from His will He lovingly chastises us to bring us back into His
arms. As I reached the time of my college graduation, I had to do
three
internships. I had chosen the second one in a nursing home. I had
chosen to obtain my degree in Recreation so that I could work with
special needs children; knowing that this was what God wanted of my
life. As I walked down the hall to report to the Activities Director
to begin my internship, I heard God say to me, "this is a ministry and
this is where I want you." While there working out my internship,
the Activities Director resigned and I was asked if I would like to
have the job. Immediately, I said yes knowing I was in the field God
wanted me to be. The Administrator said she would work with me so I
could graduate and obtain my degree! God was at work! This was
confirmation that God had me where He wanted me to
be. But after twenty five years of being Activities Director, I was
ready to get out of the career. An employee at work was causing me
trouble, which she did with everyone. However, I saw this as an easy
excuse to get out of this career. I applied for an office job
which I immediately obtained. On the first day it just did not feel
right to be in this position. People were unfriendly and unkind. The
only friend I had was a squirrel who came up to the window and I would
open the window and feed him peanuts. When the supervisor would come
through the office, I would become physically ill. That was another
sign that this was totally wrong. I was not where God wanted me. I
had never become ill like this on a job over a supervisor. I had
always
obtained good relationships with past supervisors. Later I noticed
someone had been in my computer and documenting wrong documentation as
if I had keyed it in the computer. After six months of
this, I began looking for another office position. It was Christmas
and I wanted to fine one desperately. Well I sure found one in my
doctor's office working at the front desk for his partner. From the
first day, I was thrown to the wolves. I cried and prayed for God to
help me to know where He wanted me to be. No orientation or assistance
at all. Heaven forbid if I asked the ladies in the office for
assistance! They became rude and isolated me. After two weeks of this
torture I was fired. I was told I was not fast enough but I was good
with people. My computer skills were good also. So the search began
once again. I darkened the door of two temp agencies and even went
through testing. However, nothing was available. A friend told me
about a position available in activities in a local nursing home. So I
went straight to the home and put in my application. After three weeks
of searching and finding nothing, it finally hit me like a ton of
bricks. "Why Lord? Why will You not allow me to find a job? I am
single and must find a job." Then I heard Him say to me so clearly,
"You were where I wanted you to be, yet you decide on your own that
you wanted to leave the career I had chosen for you.. Well you did
and now you see what has happened. You are not in My will." I prayed
right then that God would bring me back into His will. After about
seven weeks my doctor called me personally and asked me if I would
come to work for him in his office. The staff on his side liked me and
wanted him to ask me to come to work with them! I thanked him and
politely turned him down knowing I had to get back in the will of God. I was so miserable and at the end of my rope. The next day I received a phone call asking me if I would be interested in a position in the activities department!! Of course I said yes and felt this was the first step of getting back in God's will. This could only be God's hand to get me back to Him and to continue what He had for me to do! In December I have worked for 10 years at the nursing home. It was a very difficult time in my life, but He brought me back to His will. When we are God's child and we get out of His will, He lovingly chastises us to bring us back. I am glad God loved me so much that He brought me back to Him, No matter how hard it was for me. God is a loving God and will never let us wander to far from Him. He always brings us back.
